Chapter 52:
He no longer had her favoritism, so he dared not be complacent anymore.
The most obvious manifestation was that Lu Ziyan had learned insecurity.
Past memories told him that she must still love him, such profound affection could not disappear overnight.
But recently, he could no longer find those intense affections on this young lady.
Silent for a few breaths, he yielded: “If you don’t like Ming Jian following you, how about I select a few maidservants with martial power and send them over?”
“No need,” her fingertip was slowly pecked with kisses, Xie Wanning endured it again and again until she truly could not bear it, slightly curling her finger: “The capital city is very safe, aside from you, no one will night intrude into the Xuanping Marquis’s Estate, and no one will put me in danger.”
Hearing the anger in her words, Lu Ziyan quietly looked at her for a while, asking: “Really don’t want them? Your two maidservants are frail, if something really happens, they can’t protect you.”
Hearing him mention the maidservants, Xie Wanning immediately thought of Er Xia.
That Er Xia who was taken as a concubine by him in her dream, she had already made her decision.
Since they all chose to abandon her to be together, she naturally had to fulfill their relationship.
Xie Wanning lowered her eyes and said: “I’ll also send you a gift, do you want it?”
Lu Ziyan’s eyes suddenly brightened, unconsciously gripping her hand tightly: “Yes!”
“Alright then,” Xie Wanning took the opportunity to withdraw her hand, faintly saying: “Er Xia has been living in the eastern side side room these days, you can wake her up and take her away, tell her there’s no need to bid me farewell.”
The room was silent for a few breaths.
Lu Ziyan seemed very puzzled: “…What do you mean?”
Xie Wanning said: “You’ve seen Er Xia before, she’s quite good-looking, already eighteen this year…”
“Why are you telling me this!” Lu Ziyan urgently interrupted, incredulously saying: “You’re giving me a woman?”
“…She’s my personal maidservant, she has feelings for you, so I want to fulfill her wishes,” Xie Wanning admitted frankly, saying: “You’re not at a loss either, though she’s a maidservant, she’s no worse than the daughter of an ordinary minor official’s family.”
“She has feelings for me, so you want to fulfill her wishes?” Lu Ziyan glared at her fiercely, his breathing heavy, struggling to suppress the overwhelming anger, gritting his teeth: “Wanwan is truly a kind-hearted young lady, why not also fulfill my wishes?”
With that, he laughed in fury: “I’m feeling very panicked inside, you’re so understanding, why not give yourself to me to soothe my heart?”
“Lu Ziyan, don’t mess around!”
The light from the luminous pearl was not bright, in the dim room, Xie Wanning could still see his tense jawline and the surging dark color in his eyes, she hurriedly said: “If you don’t want to take her, then don’t, I’m just telling you her feelings, not forcing you to take her away.”
Lu Ziyan pursed his lips, took a deep breath, barely steadying his emotions, leaned over close to her, saying word by word: “Aside from you, I haven’t thought of wanting anyone else, if you have the mind to send someone to me, why not send yourself.”
“…” Xie Wanning was speechless, she dodged back a bit, but her nape was gripped by him again, unable to move.
Lu Ziyan stared at her fixedly for a long time, in the instant wild thoughts surged, he really wanted to do something, but in the end he did nothing, slowly releasing her.
“Deliberately trying to anger me?” His expression was cold, but his voice calm: “Even if you’re deliberately trying to anger me, it’s fine, as long as you stay away from Pei Yuqing, no matter what methods you come up with, I’ll take any beating or punishment.”
The topic turned again to Pei Yuqing.
Xie Wanning was stunned for a moment, then heard him say: “Don’t be alone with that old man anymore.”
Thinking of her praising that old man, Lu Ziyan placed her hand on his own face, the corner of his lips pulling a cold smile: “Is he better looking than me?”
“…” Xie Wanning almost suspected her ears, such words full of jealousy actually came from his mouth.
Silent for a while, she pulled her hand back, stiffly saying: “You should leave.”
Lu Ziyan gave a low hum, he paused for a very long time, still holding her hand unwilling to let go, finally raising his eyes to look at her: “Write me a letter every three days, alright? I’ll send someone to pick it up.”
Xie Wanning hugged her knees with one hand, meeting his gaze, flatly refusing: “I don’t want to write.”
Why she didn’t want to write, both knew clearly in their hearts.
Over these years, she had not received a single reply to any of the letters she sent him.
No matter how fervent the affection, when it never receives a response, it will always cool.
“Sorry…” Lu Ziyan gently kneaded her palm, thought for a moment, still explaining: “I read all those letters of yours.”
As for why there were no replies.
The reason was very simple, she was right.
Because he was certain she would wait for him in place no matter what, he fundamentally was unwilling to spend any extra thought on her.
People are perhaps like this, always neglecting the closest ones around them, only when on the verge of loss do they know what is most precious.
Thinking carefully about these two years, he didn’t even know how much grievance this young lady had suffered…
Lu Ziyan laughed helplessly, finally willing to release her hand, but leaned closer, looking at her: “You really shouldn’t forgive me so easily.”
Xie Wanning quickly pulled her hand back, clutching the bedding and shrinking back, saying nothing.
“This time, I’ll write to you, you ignore me, alright?” He thought for a moment, then said: “Your parents and elder brother have some misunderstanding about me, it’s not convenient to openly send you letters, I’ll have Yun Jin deliver them to you, when I return from Yunzhou, I’ll come to the door to apologize and seek their forgiveness.”
Yun Jin was an eagle he raised, Xie Wanning had seen it many times, she nodded lightly in agreement, then urged: “Hurry and go.”
How unwilling she was for him to be here.
Bitterness welled up in Lu Ziyan’s heart, he quietly looked at her for a long time, saying: “Then I’m leaving, remember what you promised me, don’t break a promise.”
His late-night visit was precisely to seek a promise.
He didn’t expect her to forgive him without reservations now, as long as she was willing to wait for his return and no longer pay attention to other men.
This stance of not leaving if she didn’t agree made Xie Wanning sneer inwardly.
She lowered her eyes, the corner of her lips pulling a smile, humming in agreement: “Alright.”
Hearing this, Lu Ziyan felt greatly reassured, unable to resist reaching out to grip her shoulder, saying: “Wait for me to return from Yunzhou, I’ll obtain your parents’ consent, and once again betroth you to me.”
Xie Wanning neither confirmed nor denied.
She didn’t respond, Lu Ziyan wasn’t angry either, he looked deeply at her for a long time, as if engraving her appearance in his mind, before turning to leave.
Once the intensely oppressive man left, Xie Wanning’s breathing grew heavier, she waited a long time, confirming he had really gone, before clutching her chest and panting urgently.
“Lu Ziyan!”
In the dim room, her voice was full of hatred.
