Chapter 103:
His nose tip rubbed against hers, grinding against her lips, both hating and jealous.
“How does he compare to me anywhere? Are you shifting your affections to him?” He held her hand and pressed it to his heart, saying: “It hurts here, it has hurt for many, many years. Can you not let it hurt anymore?”
The heartbeat under his palm was very fast. Xie Wanning finally got to pant. She slightly closed her eyes and did not speak for a moment.
Lu Ziyan lowered his head and looked at her for a while, couldn’t hold back and sought her lips again, gently sucking and kissing.
He was obsessed with this feeling of intimacy with her.
When the kiss was almost out of control, the hand around the girl’s waist moved restlessly and landed on that belt. Xie Wanning could clearly hear his swallowing sound, as if hesitating about something.
In the end, that hand paused for a long time without any movement.
He buried his face in her neck, trying hard to calm the tide of desire in his body, just like holding his most precious treasure, with no intention of loosening his arms around the young lady in his arms even a little.
Smelling the sweet fragrance on the girl’s body, his adam’s apple moved slightly as he swallowed, panting lowly, feeling that he was enduring it painfully.
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The empty room only had the man’s heavy panting left. Xie Wanning slowly raised her hand to wipe her lips. Her slightly closed eyes opened, and her hand was immediately seized.
Lu Ziyan didn’t even lift his head, still buried in her neck and shoulder, yet as if he had eyes there, he directly seized her right hand and took out a jade hairpin from her sleeve.
“Be good. I’m feeling very uncomfortable right now. Don’t provoke me.” He paused, then said hoarsely, “Don’t move either. Don’t move at all.”
His threat was very effective. Xie Wanning, robbed of her jade hairpin, indeed dared not move.
She stiffened her body leaning against the window edge. The man in front of her was pressed tightly against her, almost without any gap. The hot breath from his nostrils sprayed on her neck and ear.
His hand was even still on her belt, as if planning to act directly if he couldn’t hold back.
How could she dare to move!
After a long time, the panting by her ear gradually calmed. Xie Wanning lowered her eyes slightly and said: “What do you want to do to let me go?”
“You should think about what it would take for you to be willing to divorce that sickly person and remarry me.”
Lu Ziyan’s lips rubbed against the soft flesh by her neck, sighing: “Do you know? There is a poisonous flower in the Western Regions. Its seeds can make people addicted, drive them mad, unable to leave or quit. I once deliberately took it… and finally found that compared to you, it is nothing.”
She was his addiction.
One he couldn’t quit.
As he spoke, he even obsessively took a deep breath. Xie Wanning felt goosebumps all over her body.
Chilled to the bone.
The powerlessness and stifled feeling that had surrounded her heart in the last few months of her past life came surging back.
That sense of powerlessness seemed able to completely drown this life of hers as well.
She felt her life had no light left, only endless darkness.
She could never escape his imprisonment in this life, just like now, only able to let him kiss and hug her.
In her past life, she had courted suffering herself; it was her own fault.
But what had she done wrong in this life?
She already knew her mistake, so why couldn’t he just let her go!
Even though she had hurriedly married someone, even though in her past life she had fallen into his hands and lost her life without reason.
Even though she had never owed him anything from beginning to end, he still wouldn’t let her go!
The man was still obsessively pecking and kissing her neck, making it hard for her to ignore.
Xie Wanning truly felt what annoyance and exhaustion were.
Unable to get rid of, unable to struggle free, utter despair…
She closed her eyes, then suddenly smiled.
“How can you compare to him?”
She laughed until tears came out. She no longer held her neck stiff to avoid his kisses, instead tilting her head to bring her lips close to his ear, asking lowly: “Lu Ziyan, don’t you look at what kind of thing you are? How are you worthy of comparing to him!”
The panting at her shoulder and neck paused. Lu Ziyan’s aura became oppressive all around, but Xie Wanning was unafraid.
She said: “Pei Yuqing has a gentle temperament, is upright and steady, is the same inside and out, never uses a man’s innate strength advantage to bully a young lady, and has never forced me.”
“And you?” The man’s body in front of her gradually stiffened. Xie Wanning hooked a cold smile at her lips and said word by word: “You bully me, insult me, deceive me, betray me, and yet dare to say you love me. Lu Ziyan, is this how you love someone?”
“With this body of yours that is in heat every moment?”
“There is actually such love in the world?”
“Your love suffocates me.”
She choked up: “I’ve already lost a life on you. Why won’t you let me go?”
“Why won’t you let me go!”
Her usually dainty light and lively voice was now sternly questioning.
Lu Ziyan finally lifted his head from her neck hollow. A pair of eyes that had turned scarlet at some point froze when they saw her tear-streaked face.
“Don’t cry…” He realized what he had done, stiffened for a moment, then hurriedly let her go, his expression annoyed: “Did I hurt you?”
The man in front of her retreated several steps in a row. His oppressive aura also eased. Xie Wanning’s almost collapsing heart caught a breath.
She smiled slightly: “Go look in a mirror and see where you compare to Pei Yuqing.”
“You like that kind?” Lu Ziyan’s face was ugly: “I’m not as fake and pretentious as him. If you like it, I can try to change…”
“Don’t delude yourself.” She raised her sleeve to wipe her tears. Her watery eyes stared straight at him: “In this life, this world, forever and ever, I will never like you again, never be with you again, and will not forgive you.”
“I will always remember that you owe Er Qing a life.” Xie Wanning said: “I died in the Lu Family; it was my own fault. I rushed to marry you; I courted my own suffering. But Er Qing is innocent.”
“The two years with you have already consumed all my enthusiasm. Aren’t you asking what I like about Pei Yuqing?” She smiled faintly: “Being with him relaxes me. I’m willing to be with him, even if he is impotent, even if his body is weak, even if you ruined his face, I will still like him.”
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Dead silence.
Such heartless words. Lu Ziyan listened quietly to the end, his gaze faintly trembling, his body seemingly shaking.
It was completely dark outside the window. In the room, only the light from two basins of charcoal fire illuminated. The two confronted each other in the dimness.
The jade hairpin had been taken by him. Xie Wanning had no strength on her to hurt anyone, but if he dared to force her again, she was even prepared to bite her tongue to commit suicide.
She never wanted to be at his mercy again, never wanted him to lust after her.
The eerie silence lasted a long time.
In the darkness, Lu Ziyan suddenly moved. Xie Wanning tensed up all over, secretly on guard, but saw him turn to the candlestick, somehow produce fire, light the red candle. The warm candlelight illuminated the darkness. Xie Wanning stood stiff by the window, not moving.
There will be another chapter later~~ Lu Ziyan’s scenes are about to end. He’s going to be abused into a fool by me. Don’t scold, don’t scold. Sweet romance is coming soon~~~
