Chapter 50:
Crazy?
Lu Ziyan took a luminous pearl from his bosom and casually tossed it onto the bed.
The lustrous glow bloomed from the darkness. He lowered his head to look at the young lady hugging her knees and curled up in the corner, vigilantly watching him. The corner of his lips tugged into a smile.
“Visiting abruptly late at night is not my intention. I originally had plenty of patience to slowly entangle with you, but Wanwan, I have received an imperial decree. At dawn when the city gates open, I must leave the capital for Yunzhou, with an uncertain return date.”
His tone was faint as he explained, “If I don’t see you once, I won’t feel at ease.”
As for what he was uneasy about, he did not say explicitly.
Xie Wanning pursed her lips and did not speak.
At this moment, her hair was completely undone, she was wearing thin nightgown, wrapped in a thin quilt, and the joints of her fingers clutching the quilt had turned white from tension and exertion.
Lu Ziyan’s gaze fell on her hand, and his voice softened a bit: “Don’t be afraid. I won’t do anything reckless. I just want to see you, but I can’t even enter your family gate.”
As he spoke, he sighed lightly. He hadn’t expected their relationship to deteriorate to this point.
He had never imagined that one day he would intrude so rudely into a young lady’s boudoir at night.
But he had offended her that afternoon. If he just left the capital like this, wouldn’t she hate him forever?
He had already deeply experienced how vengeful she was and dared not let her hate him again.
Noticing his line of sight, Xie Wanning panicked and curled her fingers. “Get out!”
Her voice trembled lightly, showing she was truly quite frightened.
“Let’s talk for a bit. I’ll leave after we’re done.” Lu Ziyan stood still in place, lowering his eyes to look at her. “Don’t be afraid. I absolutely won’t do anything to you.”
Xie Wanning said nothing, biting her teeth hard and glaring at him.
“…” Lu Ziyan looked away from her glare, and he also thought of how he had pinned her down for an indecent act during the day.
He stood quietly for a while. After the young lady on the bed was no longer so nervous, he sat down along the bedside.
“Do you still remember what day it is today?”
Lu Ziyan’s lips moved. “If you and I hadn’t broken off the engagement, tonight should have been our wedding night.”
Xie Wanning’s heart suddenly sank. “What do you want to do?”
Her reaction made Lu Ziyan slightly stunned, and then his brows furrowed faintly. “What do you think I want to do to you?”
What kind of image did he have in her eyes?
Did she think his late-night visit was for…
Lu Ziyan suddenly clenched his fist. “What happened during the day was my fault. I was just driven mad with anger…”
At this point, he paused, his gaze dark and inscrutable, and hoarsely said, “Wanwan, you clearly told me that you have no relationship with Pei Yuqing.”
How could she deceive him?
They had just broken off the engagement, and she turned around to attend a flower appreciation banquet. Who wouldn’t know the deeper meaning behind that ‘flower appreciation banquet’?
She had even met that man alone in the flower room!
His voice was very low, but in the pin-drop silent room, it still reached Xie Wanning’s ears clearly without missing a word.
In the quiet room, her abrupt cold laugh rang out.
How ridiculous. This kind of person was truly impervious to reason, as if deaf and blind.
Hadn’t she shown her detest for him obviously enough? Or had she really loved him so much before that it made him arrogant to this extent?
To the point that even after both had broken off the engagement, he still harbored illusions that she was just throwing a tantrum, still loved him in her heart, and would be like before, not glancing at other men?
How could she have liked such an arrogant and conceited man for so long?
Anger surged to her head, and Xie Wanning no longer cared about being afraid. She abruptly raised her eyes and met his gaze directly.
“Are you so desperate for humiliation?”
She had never said such biting words before, and Lu Ziyan was stunned again.
“When I liked you, you ignored me, showing me a cold face every day. Now that I don’t want you, you desperately entangle.” Xie Wanning glared at him, not even suppressing her voice, and laughed angrily: “Lu Ziyan, I’ve never seen anyone as desperate for humiliation as you.”
“Who I meet privately with or appreciate flowers with has nothing to do with you anymore, understand?”
Being insulted like this, Lu Ziyan’s lips were pressed tight, and for a long time he couldn’t say a word.
The atmosphere in the room stagnated, a deathly silence.
Darkness gradually crept into his eyes, making him look utterly terrifying.
Xie Wanning sensed something wrong and somewhat regretted not keeping her composure. In this situation, if she really provoked him, what would she do? Just then, the man sitting at the bed edge suddenly leaned over, pinching her chin with his warm fingertip and lifting it.
Looking at her panic-stricken deer-like eyes, Lu Ziyan subconsciously loosened his grip a bit.
“All the previous things were my fault. I didn’t care about your feelings. Now thinking back, it’s only natural for you to feel aggrieved and disappointed.”
“My temperament is cold, I’m not good with words, I don’t know how to say sweet things to make my young lady happy, and I always anger you, saying a lot of insincere nonsense that hurt your heart. But I didn’t do anything wrong. I never wanted another woman. You can’t just sentence me to death like this.”
The young lady before him had misty eyes. Lu Ziyan looked at her and felt a dry throat. His adam’s apple bobbed slightly as he lowered his eyes, his line of sight falling on her lips, before continuing: “I’ve only ever liked one young lady, you. Before, I just didn’t know how to treat you well, but I’ll try to change. I won’t say that nonsense anymore.”
—Don’t reject me.
This phrase swirled on the tip of his tongue for a long time but was ultimately too hard to voice.
He was a tall and upright man; how could he beg a young lady like this?
These heartfelt words he had spoken already made him deeply uncomfortable.
They were very close. Under the faintly glowing luminous pearl, Xie Wanning could clearly see the hope in his eyes.
He said the nonsense he spoke before was all insincere.
He said he would change, he would change everything.
He said he had only liked her, one young lady, and he hadn’t done anything wrong, hadn’t touched other women.
He hoped these words could rekindle her feelings.
This realization made a chill rise in Xie Wanning’s heart.
How wonderful it would be if the her from the dream heard such words.
So, at this point in time, he actually only liked her?
Xie Wanning didn’t doubt he was lying. This man’s personality was proud and he never yielded; there was no need for him to lie to deceive her.
But such words were even more laughable.
How should she tell him that later he would like another young lady, devote himself entirely to another woman, and hold that woman up to the heavens?
Pulling away the hand on her chin, Xie Wanning took a deep breath and tried to steady her emotions.
Lu Ziyan waited a long time without hearing her response, and the hope in his eyes gradually dimmed.
Clearly such a delicate and soft young lady, how could she become so heartless overnight?
What had he done wrong?
He had only concealed that the insignificant woman was his cousin’s concubine. He already knew he was wrong and had earnestly explained it.
Why was she still so hard-hearted and unwilling to turn back to look at him?
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