Chapter 138:
He used great force, with an unrefusable strength, gripping her hand and slowly probing downward.
“Be good, touch me first.”
“…” Xie Wanning held her breathing, no matter what, refusing to touch that thing.
But their strength differed greatly, her hand still moving downward continuously…
Finally, she could no longer hold on.
“Do you have to do this!”
Her voice was hoarse, sounding like she was about to cry. Lu Ziyan frowned slightly and lowered his gaze to look at her.
He saw her little mouth still opening and closing continuously.
“Lu Ziyan, do you have to bully people like this?”
A pair of eyes red and swollen, golden beans ready to fall at any moment.
Seeing this, Lu Ziyan’s frown deepened.
He didn’t know how she dared say he only knew how to get aroused; it was more like she only knew how to cry.
“What’s the grievance?” He pinched her palm and said, “If this is bullying you, then haven’t you bullied me?”
Such unreasonable words made Xie Wanning glare at him in anger.
Lu Ziyan lowered his head close, his voice very soft, “Wanwan, you have those memories. You awakened past life memories first, remembering that you are my wife. We were a couple for two years, our affection between us unbroken, yet you could turn around and marry someone else. Isn’t that bullying?”
“I make a mistake, and you turn ruthless and refuse to turn back. That sickly person deceives you, and you are considerate, unwilling to blame him!”
As he spoke, the barely suppressed sourness surged up again.
“Now you tell me to part amicably, each well on our own,” he ground his molars and asked her, “How am I supposed to part amicably with you?”
“Then what do you want! If not parting amicably, what do you want?” Xie Wanning said agitatedly, “I have not wronged you, never owed you anything. Why won’t you let me go!”
“What right do you have to compare with Pei Yuqing? He never forced me. Marrying him was my own initiative, and consummation was my willing choice.”
She never wanted to anger him, but at this moment, she was so angry her mind went blank.
“If there had been no disturbance from you on our wedding night, we would have consummated long ago, not waited until now! What qualification do you have to be angry? What qualification do you have to demand an explanation from me!”
“Shut up!” Lu Ziyan suddenly gripped her hand tightly, his knuckles turning white from the force, his chest heaving rapidly, looking extremely terrifying.
But Xie Wanning’s reason had already been shattered by anger; she couldn’t even care about fear, impossible to stop. She sneered, “So what if Pei Yuqing deceived me? It’s still better than you never considering my wish and humiliating me!”
She looked at her gripped wrist and his exposed chest, full of disgust: “I only find you disgusting.”
Disgusting again!
Always saying he was disgusting!
Lu Ziyan’s expression grew colder and colder.
“Where am I disgusting?” His voice was ruthless, “His deception isn’t disgusting? Why are you so tolerant of that old man?”
Xie Wanning sneered, too lazy to pay him any attention.
“Wake up! Don’t be fooled by his layer of gentle and considerate disguise!”
He lifted her chin, pointing out the reality she refused to accept, “Last night he did it on purpose, deliberately using Warm Affection Powder to make you initiate consummation! Just to make me regret, to make me suffer!”
Xie Wanning was forced to raise her face, their eyes meeting.
She could clearly see the anger and despair in his eyes.
She had never seen him like this, not even on the wedding night.
Xie Wanning thought Pei Yuqing was indeed one move ahead.
The strategy to attack the heart was used brilliantly.
Because of last night’s events, the man before her was jealous almost to madness.
He really understood people, and human nature.
She even suspected whether this scene now was also within his scheme.
……Too terrifying.
One scheme after another, all including her.
Was the affection he spoke of really existent?
If he really loved her, how could he allow another man to intrude into the bridal chamber on their wedding night.
If he really loved her, how could their consummation be wrapped in a lie.
She trusted him so much, trusted him every time.
Being deceived again made Xie Wanning feel that her heart, already unable to invest abundant affection, grew even more weary.
Both marriages left her powerless.
One was her past life husband, cold and untamed, never showing her a kind face. They went through all sorts of misunderstandings between them. No matter his starting point, those pains were real experiences. She lost her life in his hands; a broken mirror could never be mended.
One was her current husband, gentle and doting, seemingly respecting her opinions in everything. But he would scheme against his rival on their wedding night, even their consummation carried a lie. She didn’t know if she dared trust him again in the future.
And both professed to love her.
Who could bear such love?
“Wanwan,” Lu Ziyan tightened his grip on her hand and said, “You can’t be ruthless only to me. He used you to deal with me; you should be fair and make him pay the price too.”
Used…
Xie Wanning savored these two words, her heart feeling like it was struck hard by a heavy object, hurting so much she instinctively shrank her neck, wanting to bend her waist, but they were too close; bending would seem like throwing herself into his arms.
She took a deep breath, her gaze falling again on their entangled hands.
His lapel was already open, the smooth and attractive lines of his waist and abdominal muscles from years of martial training, currently pressing her hand at the position below his navel…
She turned her face away, trying to pull her hand out.
Still no result, she suddenly laughed.
“Even if Pei Yuqing did it on purpose, dissatisfied with your entanglement with me, so he turned the scheme against you, using the methods you employed to strike back at you.”
“You can say he used me,” she lightly pressed her fingertip on the tense muscle below, mocking, “Then what difference are you from him right now?”
Lu Ziyan’s whole body suddenly stiffened, his hand unconsciously loosening some force.
“Whether you admit it or not, I am his wife. What you’re doing to me now—is it to retaliate with the same methods?”
“You want to humiliate him, so you choose to humiliate me too,” her eyes full of coldness, “The only difference is, he turned the scheme to deceive me, while you directly want to use force.”
“Don’t wrongly accuse me!” The hatred in her eyes was too piercing. Lu Ziyan said with a stern face, “I never thought that!”
“Is that so?” Xie Wanning moved her wrist.
As if asking, ‘What are you doing now?’
The two stared at each other for a few breaths, neither yielding.
In the end, Lu Ziyan let go of her hand.
He clearly knew she said all this just to stop him, yet he couldn’t ignore her words.
No matter what, he couldn’t let her think of him this way!
He said, “In my heart, we are the couple. No matter how intimate, it’s only natural and right, not a method to humiliate Pei Yuqing.”
Xie Wanning was noncommittal.
He added, “I won’t touch you, and you stop angering me too.”
