Chapter 188: Depravity
When He Shang went to find Xie Jingyan, he was studying.
His facial expression was very indifferent, even upon seeing He Shang’s expression, it was still very indifferent.
He Shang came to vent to Xie Jingyan: “Jingyan bro, didn’t you notice Jiang Ning has changed like a different person? She actually hit Sui Tang, it pisses me off!”
Hearing this, Xie Jingyan just said: “Oh, and then?”
He Shang was chilled by his attitude, somewhat speechless as he looked at him: “You’re so cold, who pissed you off? Aren’t you on very good terms with Jiang Ning? What’s gotten into her, suddenly transferring to class seven?”
Xie Jingyan held his pen and wrote: “I don’t know, don’t tell me her news in the future, I can’t manage it.”
He Shang was choked, full of question marks: “What do you mean? How did you change faster than the weather forecast? Last time you said you didn’t hate Jiang Ning anymore, you like her, now what contradiction is this?”
Xie Jingyan didn’t speak, seriously doing his homework.
He Shang was really done with him.
Unable to get any answers, he left.
The next period of time, Xie Jingyan’s surroundings were very calm.
Except every few days being “invited” by Jiang Ning into the alley for a beating.
Each time beating him until his face was broken before letting him go.
She sat on a high container, spotless, looking down at him coldly, like looking at an ant.
Xie Jingyan lowered his head, leaning against the wall sitting, he spat out a mouthful of blood foam, his expression somewhat weary.
“Would she treat you like this?”
“Jiang Ning” asked.
Xie Jingyan didn’t answer.
“Jiang Ning” found it boring, curving her eyes in a smile: “Next is Su Wanyuan, your and her existence both make me very disgusted.”
The alley returned to silence.
The moon hid behind the clouds.
Xie Jingyan opened his mobile phone to check the time, it was already seven-thirty.
From being dragged out here to being beaten in this alley, it had been almost an hour.
He wiped the blood from the corner of his lips, looked down at the tear on his black cotton-padded clothes made by sharp stones, with the cotton leaking out.
Xie Jingyan’s fingers were stiff, trying hard to stuff the exposed cotton back in.
This was the new clothes Old Mrs. Xie bought him, and it was only the second time he wore them. If he knew he’d get beaten today, he would have changed clothes.
He was sorry to his grandmother, he accidentally ruined the clothes.
Xie Jingyan struggled to stand up, supporting himself on the wall as he walked out.
Looking at the brightly lit school, he suddenly felt very tired.
He seemed to have followed the rules for over a decade, always the obedient child in others’ mouths, always sensible with good grades, year after year the school’s recognized three-good student, not noisy or troublesome, earning much praise.
He turned and left, without entering the school.
He wanted to skip class.
Then he entered a pharmacy, bought some Band-Aids to cover the broken places on his face.
Then entered a convenience store, bought the cheapest pack of cigarettes and a lighter.
He sat on the steps, thinking of last time when he refused the cigarette Meng Su offered, and was praised by him happily as “good child”.
A mocking glint flashed in Xie Jingyan’s eyes.
He opened the cigarette pack, bit one in the corner of his lips, lit it, and the choking taste rushed into his mouth.
Mist rose, Xie Jingyan was choked into coughing fits.
He didn’t understand, what was good about smoking this stuff.
He coughed while inhaling the smoke, his chest aching.
Jiang Ning stood not far away, watching him clumsily smoking, her eyes reddening.
She deeply felt one word.
“Degeneration”
Yes, Xie Jingyan was degenerating.
Even abandoning his proud grades.
He started sleeping in class, going to the internet cafe after school, skipping evening study session, in that smoky environment, he learned to smoke and drink.
He Shang came to find him twice, last time dragged along to sit together in the internet cafe.
After that he didn’t come anymore.
Because Xie Jingyan was really fucking toxic.
Even made him pay the internet fee.
New Year’s Eve Gala that day.
“Jiang Ning” played a piano piece on stage.
As the Jiang Family young lady, she had this bit of skill.
Like an elegant white swan taking a bow, then offstage pouncing into Gu Lanli’s arms.
Gu Lanli seemed already used to the current “Jiang Ning”.
Accepting her eyes full of love.
Xie Jingyan stood at the back of the auditorium.
Fumbled in his pocket for a bit, took out the last cigarette, bit it in his mouth, wanted to light it, found the lighter had no gas.
Just as he was about to leave school to buy some, a hand tapped his shoulder: “Hey, buddy.”
Wei Jin appeared behind him, spinning a lighter in his hand, said to Xie Jingyan: “Lend you a light?”
Xie Jingyan just glanced, took the lighter, lit it, walked to a farther place, watching the burning cigarette rising mist, blurring his handsome features.
Wei Jin couldn’t help but tsk: “I thought excellent students like you wouldn’t touch cigarettes.”
“Can’t I touch them?” Xie Jingyan was somewhat puzzled: “Who says good students must live by a good routine.”
Wei Jin raised a brow: “Does Jiang Ning know?”
Xie Jingyan curved his lips, brows and eyes full of sarcasm: “If she knows so what, if not then what, in the end it doesn’t matter much.”
This time Wei Jin fell silent.
He looked at Xie Jingyan with eyes full of strangeness: “When I saw you rush into the fire scene regardless of life, I thought you valued Jiang Ning more than your own life. Now looking back, Xie Jingyan, your like seems not much after all.”
This sentence didn’t know which nerve it touched in Xie Jingyan.
The half-burned cigarette was thrown on the ground by him, he rushed in front of Wei Jin, grabbed his collar, angrily said: “What do you know? You don’t understand at all that I was forced to accept what kind of worldview, everything is illusory, you don’t know how I’m tormented by her every day, I should hate her, but my heart seems sick, I can’t hate, I only hate myself.”
Xie Jingyan only hated himself, uselessly, fell for Jiang Ning.
That liar.
How despairing to like someone impossible, does Wei Jin know?
How far is another world?
What is the system?
That’s a place he doesn’t even dare think about.
Maybe the Jiang Ning he likes has already gone back.
Taking her loved one hundred billion, leaving him behind, just like that.
What did she take him for?
Xie Jingyan gritted his teeth, black eyes full of hate: “I will definitely kill her, definitely.”
His fists clenched tight, enunciating clearly, like swearing an oath.
Wei Jin shoved him off: “I don’t know what happened between you and Jiang Ning, or what misunderstanding, she’s changed a lot recently, even I somewhat don’t recognize her as the person I like, but even so… you should go ask her clearly, not degenerate here.”
Xie Jingyan let go of Wei Jin, voice trembling: “How should I go find her? By ending my life?”
Then what about his grandmother and sister?
Xie Jingyan took a deep breath, and Wei Jin scared, hurriedly said: “Are you stupid? Who the fuck wants you to suicide, there’s always a method, right.”
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