Chapter 200: Cruel Memories
“Do I, like this, make you feel disgusted and afraid?” Seeing Xia Chenge looking at him without speaking, Ling Hanmu took a step back subtly, trying his best to hide the disappointment in his heart.
Whether it was the genius girl of the apocalypse or Xia Chenge of the 21st century, as long as it was that soul, he deeply loved her.
They were forced into opposition in the apocalypse, but he couldn’t deceive Xia Chenge.
If feelings are hidden, countless lies are needed to cover them up, and the rift between the two will only grow larger.
If Xia Chenge truly couldn’t accept him like this, he wouldn’t blame her.
After all, only those who have experienced the apocalypse know how harsh that survival environment was and how much people had to pay to survive!
Who wouldn’t hate him, the culprit?
Ling Hanmu waited nervously for Xia Chenge’s answer.
But she remained silent, and the time felt so long that Ling Hanmu’s heart began to grow cold.
He turned around silently, dragging his heavy steps towards the exit.
Although this was the answer he expected, Ling Hanmu’s heart still ached to the point where he couldn’t breathe.
He also hated his identity, but after being reborn, he still hadn’t escaped the fate of being Ling Zhongwen’s experimental subject…
“Where are you going?” Xia Chenge snapped back to reality, seeing Ling Hanmu walking out, and suddenly grabbed his hand.
Ling Hanmu’s heart grew warm again, but he dared not look back, fearing that Xia Chenge’s next words would send him back to hell: “I… am leaving here.”
“Where do you plan to go?” Xia Chenge asked.
“Don’t worry, I’m not the me from the apocalypse now. I know what to do and what not to do, and I won’t hurt anyone.” Ling Hanmu’s heart clenched.
“Are you stupid?” Xia Chenge finally understood what he meant.
She had been in shock just now, so much so that although she heard what Ling Hanmu said, she didn’t truly process it, and therefore didn’t respond to him.
This matter happened too suddenly; even for Xia Chenge, an evolved human from the apocalypse, it was difficult to accept for a moment.
Once she processed this information, her feelings wouldn’t change because of it.
“Even if you become the Zombie King in the future, that’s still in a future that hasn’t arrived. We who are living in the present are still us!” Xia Chenge hugged Ling Hanmu from behind and said softly, “Perhaps my reaction just now disappointed you, but Xiao Mu, people always need time to accept incredible miracles!”
“You don’t have to be so unconfident or doubt yourself because of this. As long as it’s you, what does it matter if you remember things from the past and future? It’s still the same soul, still the Ling Hanmu I like!”
Ling Hanmu froze upon hearing this, his eyes secretly reddening.
He wasn’t actually that sentimental a person.
At that time, after recalling the events of the apocalypse, he too found it hard to accept that his future self would be such a terrifying existence.
No matter how much he resisted or tried to escape, those scenes of widespread destruction and a world riddled with holes always lingered. All the things that would happen in the future were deeply etched into his memory like brands.
Unforgettable, indelible!
“Xiao Mu, actually, I’m very glad, because I’m not fighting alone anymore.” Xia Chenge suddenly smiled. “Do you know? Before this, every time I thought about the mission I carried, I felt the heavy burden of responsibility. Carrying such a shocking secret was particularly difficult.”
“They don’t know that the apocalypse will happen in the future. They might misunderstand everything I do, or even disrupt my plans… And I won’t be able to tell them anything then, perhaps bearing infamy for a lifetime.”
“Now that I have you, I feel completely relieved, because at least someone knows that everything I’m doing is right. Xiao Mu, don’t blame yourself. Those things haven’t happened yet, and we have plenty of time to change our fate.”
Ling Hanmu raised his hand and placed it on the soft small hands at his waist, gripping them tightly: “Little Brother, thank you!”
“Silly, why don’t you think about it? In the apocalypse, we knew of each other’s existence but never met. Yet fate brought us back to the past, to meet and know each other. Isn’t this heaven-ordained for us to be together and support each other?” Xia Chenge pressed against his broad back.
“I was anxious all day, and now I’m finally at peace.” Ling Hanmu turned around and hugged Xia Chenge tightly.
Just now, he truly thought he was about to lose Xia Chenge!
He had even planned to destroy the laboratory and disappear from this world.
“Were you just thinking that after the laboratory matter is over, you would also end your own life?” Xia Chenge looked up at him.
Ling Hanmu was startled, his gaze somewhat evasive.
“I won’t allow you to do that. We will find a way to clear the zombie virus. I haven’t given up, and you’re not allowed to give up, understand?” Xia Chenge sternly instructed him.
“Okay!” Ling Hanmu agreed.
“By the way, tell me everything you can remember.” After confessing her feelings, Xia Chenge didn’t linger on romantic matters.
The most important thing now was to deal with the laboratory first; everything else could wait.
Ling Hanmu’s life carried two sets of memories.
The first set was the memories from before he became the Zombie King in his previous life.
In his previous life, before becoming a zombie, at the age of twenty, he was frozen in the laboratory by Ling Zhongwen. The Ling family couldn’t find him and declared him dead. From then on, he lay in the laboratory until the virus in his body completely transformed into the zombie virus, and he woke up.
Upon waking, he was no longer human. He attacked everyone in the laboratory, turning them into zombies, thus triggering the outbreak of the zombie virus and the advent of the apocalypse, which was the world where the genius girl Xia Chenge lived!
The second set was the destruction of Earth, and he, like Xia Chenge, was reborn into the 21st century.
In this life, things changed. He wasn’t harmed into an imbecile when Ling Zhongwen first injected him with the virus; he even underwent a series of electric shock experiments by Ling Zhongwen.
The potential that erupted from him was because he had brought back the abilities of the Zombie King upon rebirth, not because Ling Zhongwen’s experiment to stimulate human limit potential was successful!
The results of these two lives were vastly different, and the processes were also completely dissimilar.
But for Ling Hanmu, these memories were all cruel.
He calmly recounted those experiences, and Xia Chenge’s heart ached again and again.
She didn’t know how the young Ling Hanmu had endured it all back then!
It must have been painful and desperate.
In the apocalypse, she hated the Zombie King and her lifelong belief was to eliminate him. She never imagined that the truth would be so heartbreaking and painful!
After Ling Hanmu finished speaking, Xia Chenge noticed that the usually arrogant, domineering, and fearless Ling Hanmu was clenching his fists, trembling slightly.
She pried open his fists; his palms were already soaked with cold sweat.
“It’s all in the past, don’t be afraid!” Xia Chenge, unable to contain her heartache, stood on tiptoe and gently kissed his forehead.
